SAD, LONELY & DISCONNECTED
The first time I ever felt alone and disconnected happened the summer between my freshman and sophomore year, I was fourteen. I had been “hired” to work at a camp in the New Mexico Mountains for eight weeks as part of the kitchen staff, not the cooking part, but the cleaning. I washed the pots and pans. I was, “The Pot Washer.”
The lonely part happened when dad dropped me off. He stayed long enough to see me settled in my log cabin room, a space about 10′ x 10′ with no windows. There was a saggy bed, a rickety dresser that came over with Noah, and a wooden chair. Welcome home!
Dad gave me a hug, said to work hard and behave myself, then he drove off. I stood watching until I couldn’t see his car, then went into my room and started crying. It was an emotion I was unprepared to have.
The tears ran down my face for a few minutes when suddenly I heard a knock. I dried my eyes, opened the door and to my great surprise there were two girls, college girls. They were there to be counselors, and like me, for the whole summer. They were friendly, fun and super cute. There were more counselors too, for the boys and girls cabins.
I was the only high school kid on the staff. For eight glorious weeks I hung out with a dozen college students, it was the best summer ever.
On the last day my brother arrived to take me home and the tears streamed again. Not because I felt sad, alone and disconnected but because I didn’t want to leave!
A FEW THOUGHTS
- If I knew how sad I was going to be when dropped off I wouldn’t have gone.
- If I knew how small, sparse, and lonely my room was I wouldn’t have gone.
- If I knew how grimy and greasy those pots would be, I wouldn’t have gone.
- If I knew how much fun I was going have I would have hitched hiked to go.
We never know what’s around the corner, it’s because we can’t see it. From the worst situations can come the best experiences. From that which we suffer can come surprising blessings of happiness. Keep the faith because, you never know!
Hey, I think I hear someone knocking on the door!